April 2010
what the hell is going on?
hmmmm, the past week has been an emotional rollercoaster. Up, down, ok, down, down, dooooown, up, yipeekyeyaaaay, down, up, total bitch, down, up. wtf. i know right? So, i put myself on neutral, or at least i tried to because i have been swimming in all different types of emotions that im starting to feel a lil’ schizo. siiigh, it must be because my mom’s back(from tatay’s...
everything revolves around
honnete:
sex
Like my tumblr.
I’m getting the feeling that my aura screams shmex. I don’t mind, but uh, well, vow of celibacy and all. This damn tumblr will be about shmex and celibacy. Sorry.
twelvepiercingstwelvepiercingstwelvepiercings
you so funny.
cry hard.
its been 11 days since my grandpa passed away. In all my life, i have never experienced a death of a loved one. Now, i understand. it hurts so much, and yet, I keep telling myself that “its ok, he’s in a better place.” But once I kept telling myself that over and over again, my throat suddenly tightens.
*i will not excuse myself for typing a depressing blog.
awkward much
so, after many obvious attempts to tell me he likes me: (text messages copied exactly as is)
Y: Hi!
Me: O good, you got it lol.
Y: Ha yes! How are you?
Me: (yeee, practice the touch screeen) good good. i got a new phone, which was the only good thing that happened during my sprng break :/ how about you? how was your spring break?
Y: only good thing? lol. Me i just thought about you all break!
Me: What a silly thing to say. lollllll seriously, what'd u do during break?
(i know, the guy knows how to say the sweetest things, but sadly, i dont feel the same way, so this is how raisa does it: )
Y: i told you, i thought about you all break
Me: (recieves message ... -_____- and replies ) you should think about other people too! because i do.
Y: like who?
Me: idkkk, you have the whole worlds population to think about
Y: what wrong wth thinking about you?
Me: (sigh*) theres nothing wrong about it, but i guess you can, you'll eventually get over it.
Y: you know, a simple thank you wouldve been fine.
Me: (T__T) im sorry. i shouldve said that from the start. Thank you :]
Y: hahah its ok. anyways, behave. ill ttyl.
Me: (im such a fuckin' dickwad) mmmk bye :D
holding back tears
Do you remember….?
It was a bright early morning, half of Kalibo’s population is awake, and the smell of the new morning dew mixed with the acrid odor of burnt waste wafted through the misty humid air. I was roughly around the age of 6 or 7. Mom and dad had left me to you and nanay’s care because they were worried that I was too young to travel.
As...
all black
time to wear black until mom gets back :[
"...with your James Dean glossy eyes"
TODAY WAS THE LONGEST DAY OF MY LIFE.
My dad woke me up at 8am:
Dad: (singing while strumming my guitar) gooooood morning my lil damulag*. wake up now, we’re going to eat breakfast.
Raisa: (thought bubble: ugggggh, shut up. go away) just eat breakfast without me.
Dad: (takes right arm and looks at it) you got rashes again? what did you eat again..?
Raisa: ( still holding my right arm)...
babblebabble SPRING BREAK babblebabble
I have a final at 12:oo for my Health 101 class and I cannot wait to get that over with. Seriously, that class was basically common sense. You see an injured person and you help em’ out! That pretty much sums up the whole class.
Anyways, SPRING BREAK. wooo! i dont really know what im going to do for a week, but i am for sure not going to sit on my ass on a couch like a a french fry for the...
ceejay, you poop.
Mom: when are you going to set the appointment with ceejay?
Me: i dont know, i always ask him, but he's like, always busy.
Mom: (in tagalog) what if he backs out? i already told all my co-workers that he's going to choreograph the dances, i don't want to be embarassed.
Me: we'll see, i heard he has a girlfriend, maybe thats why he's busy. hahaha
Mom: so does that mean we dont have a choreographer?
Me: MOM, don't worry, i'll beat the shit out of him if he backs out....i mean, i'll talk to him..
Mom: hahahah ok, just talk to him.
Me: mommy, TRUST he can't say "no" to me.
another episode from paris baguette
so far, no one has stared at me all weird (the furry tassel), And why should i care, you ask? i dont even know. lolll Anyways, so yesterday, i visited cristy at work HAHA (who doesn’t love cristy?). Had a lil’ (BIG) chat. But it was cool, i mean i was a little distracted by a long time visitor named ______ (prilly, you know who im talkin about). It’s been a while since i saw him....
a blog for prilly and charlene
Another bloody monday, i hate mondays, i hate thinking about mondays, and i hate doing work on mondays (in exception of holidays that fall on mondays). On the bright side, spring break is next week! Just 2 more school days for me :D
CHARLENE: yea, we should totally hang out next week, since its our spring break. Let’s eat at some cheap restaurant and gossip about each other’s love...
